Holiday blues

I can't seem to get myself out of this funk. I get more depressed every day. The holidays are always hard but usually not this hard. I think it's because I know we have come to the end of the road. If donor embryo's don't work then we are done.

I messaged a few people on miracles waiting and haven't heard back. I have a feeling it's not going to work out. I'm hoping for a private match. I would prefer to know the donors and to have a relationship with them.

Anyhow, I don't really feel like talking about all this so I think I'll go find something to do.