The reason I made this blog public (as I previously stated) was because I knew there were to many other woman going through this and I wanted them to know they are not alone in having these feelings. It is common for woman going through infertility and fertility treatments such as IUI and IVF to have these feelings.
I don't expect everyone to understand and I know I'll continue to get negative comments. All from anonymous people (I mean really people if you want to say something anonymous then like a name to a blog or something where people can respond to you). But I feel that lots of these people just find joy in going around being rude to others. I'm not perfect, I'll admit. I can be mean and gossip and be judgmental. And I'm working on that.
I do have a family blog. I'd be happy to give it out to you but I'm hesitant to post it here in public in fear of the "mean" people deciding to bash me there too. And I can't figure out how to let people contact me. Personally I prefer wordpress over blogger and that's where my other blog is.
Ah what the heck. My family blog is www.klickfamilyblog.wordpress.com . I haven't bee keeping up with it. Honestly I've been a bit depressed since May when the baby was taken back by his birth mom so I kind of stopped writing. (although I do have a few from this summer). I'm trying to write more but honestly my life is boring. I don't have kids so I post about my family gatherings and some times my dog. Fun fun huh? Although I suppose it's funner then listening to me whine here... :)
So anyway. I know life is hard. And I know all to well the "suck it up" mentality. My husband is big on not dwelling with things. To suck it up, accept it and move on with life. He's extremely blessed to be able to not let things bother him. Even the loss of the baby he handled well. He grieved and move on with life. I have a hard time with that (being an overly emotional person at times) but I'm working on it.
I start work (yay!) on the 1st. AFter 1.5 years of trying to switch from sales to an administrative job. If I wanted to stay in sales I would have had a job .... oh... about a year and a half ago. I guess I"m lucky that I have a husband with a great job. So I can be picky I guess. But being laid off doesn't help my depression any and working should snap me right out of it. I'll feel I have a purpose again. You see DH and I both want me to be a stay at home mom once we have kids but at that point at least I'll feel I have a purpose.
Ok I'm rambling now. I'll try to keep up to date with this blog and post more. I stopped for a while but it's good to get my feelings out.