Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Holiday blues

I can't seem to get myself out of this funk. I get more depressed every day. The holidays are always hard but usually not this hard. I think it's because I know we have come to the end of the road. If donor embryo's don't work then we are done.

I messaged a few people on miracles waiting and haven't heard back. I have a feeling it's not going to work out. I'm hoping for a private match. I would prefer to know the donors and to have a relationship with them.

Anyhow, I don't really feel like talking about all this so I think I'll go find something to do.

Friday, December 3, 2010

The waiting game...

Hubby and I decided to put a profile up on miracles waiting in hopes of trying to get matched sooner rather then later. It's only been up for a few days now so we'll see. The moderator offered to email an expired profile for me. I found a profile I really really liked but it expired the end of August so I couldn't contact them. She emailed them Monday and hasn't heard back so I don't think anything will come of it.

A friend of mine has a friend, who has a friend (still following me?) who got pregnant with triplets from IVF and has 12 frozen embryo's left over. She doesn't want any more children so she's going to sign the paperwork to donate her embryo's to CNY. My friend and her friend (and her friend) are all patients with CNY. My friend is going to tell her friend about me in hopes that the person who wants to donate will think about maybe donating to us instead of giving them to CNY. We'd still cycle with CNY (they are 1/2 the price of most places) though. Clearly we don't need 12 embryo's but having lots to chose from would be nice since we want more then just a couple children.

I'd LOVE to be matched with embryo's by Christmas. Ideally I'd love to be able to cycle in February or March of 2011 but I'm not sure that will happen. Getting matched can take a while so we just have to be patient.