Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Break down

I saw my therapist yesterday and like always it brought up all the emotions from our recent losses again. It's a good thing but it's also annoying. I HATE HATE HATE crying. I end up holding it in and that's why I end up getting angry a lot. I deal with my grief with anger instead of sadness. it's really annoying. Especially for my husband and close friends who have to witness my break downs.

I had a good cry today though on the phone with my mom. Everything the past few days has been getting to me...and making me cry or angry. My husband is out of town on a business trip and it's hard not having him here.

Ok well I've had enough of thinking about this. I'm going to go back to trying not to think about it for the rest of the night.

2 comments:

Susan said...

I'm so sorry. I know that emotional mess. I am there now. Crying with you...

Foreverloves said...

You need to let these feelings out. You simply have to have an outlet. This is far too tragic and far too much for one person to shoulder. I caught up on everything and I just read with my mouth open. I cannot possibly fathom the amount of bad luck you've had. I hope this does not come off the wrong way. I just mean that it screams of unfairness, the height of unfairness, and I just can't believe it. It is literally unbelievable. I can't say I'm sorry because it's not enough...I really really hope the next FET is your last...because you are PREGNANT.