Blessing

Well I finally made an appointment with my Bishop. I've been meaning to for months now. A month ago my stake president told me he felt prompted that I should ask the Bishop for a blessing.

I finally did today. I want to write this one down because I want to be able to refer back to it when I am having a rough time.

The last blessing I got from my husband freaked me out. It said I was being prepared for harder things to come. The only thing that I could think of would be a m/c.

In my blessing today it said it said I would be a Mother and it would happen sooner then I think. It also said I will be able to carry healthy babies, free from defects. What a huge comfort that was. I will have less to worry about now when I finally do get pregnant.

I'm feeling so much better since we stopped the infertility treatments. I went to the fair yesterday with my mother and father in law and my 16 year old sister in law. It was so much fun. I got to go on a few rides with my sister in law. I am an only child. I realized how nice it was to have a little sister. Now I'm thinking up other things we can do together. I"m thinking of going apple picking then making candy apples.... mmmmmmmm.

Well today is the start of a new cycle and AF is kicking me in the pants. I had nausea so bad last night I was almost sick. I should go take some Midol so my cramps go away.

I am on my 3rd un medicated cycle since my last IVF. This will be my last cycle then we are doing another round of IVF.

Oh I also got released from Primary and have not been called to a new calling yet. I fear that I'm going to be asked to teach the 15 year olds. I really really hope I don't have to. I have a bad feeling that is where I will end up. I'm not very confident when it comes to my knowledge. It's one thing to not have an answer to a 9 year olds question. it's another when you are teaching kids who know more then you.