emotions

My emotions are all over the place. I went from being excited to not wanting to do this again. I often find myself looking over at the pregnancy boards on FF. I don't know why I do it to myself. To be perfectly honest I get jealous of the woman over there. Especially those that do IVF and get pregnant right away, and some of them with twins. How someone else can be blessed so abundantly but I can't even get 1 baby and I've had 4 embryo's transfered thus far just doesn't seem fair. Don't get me wrong I'm not hoping for any more then 1 baby. I know what is best is having a healthy pregnancy. Anyhow, I really should get off the internet. I'm an emotional wreck. I just want to get the next two weeks over with.