Well I've officially ruined my weekend. BFN again today. I know I could still get a BFP but I'm not holding out hope. I will be 12DPER tomorrow and will use my last test. If no positive tomorrow then I'm going to officially give up. YES some woman get late +'s but it doesn't happen to often. Usually by 11 DPO they have gotten their BFP. Some as late as 12 DPO.
I knew I was right. I knew my embryos were dead when they transfered them.
I'm so sick of this. I don't understand why I can't get pregnant.
I had a blessing in which it said "it will happen sooner then you think." I'm starting to have doubts again. "yeah right" is all I can say. "what ever". Just as I started to have faith again...it's going to be completely crushed. Well if God isn't going to work with my time frame then I'm going to start looking into adoption. Regardless of whether my PB says by natural means. I control my life and I make my own decisions and I want a baby now not later. (how's that for a temper tantrum) Oddly enough DH and I talked about adoption and at this point that is the route he'd almost rather go. Unfortunately we just spent our savings on two heating systems (we own an apartment building) and a down payment on our new car. I'm sure by the time we got a baby we'd have the money though.
I took a very long nap...well I actually went back to bed and got up at 3:30 and I feel better now. I still think I'm out of the running but we'll see. I don't know if I'll test tomorrow I think I might leave it for Monday morning. But then again I don't know if I want to do that to myself on Monday. AF should be here Monday or Tuesday. I always start regardless of progesterone. we shall see.