Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Devastated


9 follicles equaled 3 eggs. icon_cry.gif icon_cry.gif icon_cry.gif DH and I are pretty devastated. I realize it only takes 1 but hearing that wont' help. I'm trying my best to be positive but I'm finding it extremely hard right now. I'll find out tomorrow afternoon how many fertilized. last time we only had 3 eggs 1 fertilized and didn't make it. Please pray for a miracle that all 3 fertilize and make it for transfer. I'm so sick of this and I want it to be over. I'd gladly transfer all 3 (and DH agrees) if I'm that lucky. so 6 of my follicles were empty (fluid there but no egg)

I can not believe this is happening.

IVF #1
150 iu gonal F and ganerellix
8 follicles = 7 eggs 1 was "narcotic" (bad quality) 6 good eggs, all ICSI but only 3 fertilized
2 made it to a 3dt (one completely 100% perfect 8 cell and one 5 cell) BFN

IVF #2
225 iu gonal f
lupron protocol
3 follicles = 3 eggs did ICSI 1 fertilized and was bad quality...died in the lab...no transfer

current IVF (#3)
225 IU gonal F & ganerelliz
9 follicles 6 empty 3 eggs. Will find out fertilization tomorrow. We are doing ICSI on all of them.
I cant' wait to talk to my doctor to see what his reaction is. Needless to say I'm quite angry that they didn't listen to me and do an antral follicle count or CD 3 blood work.

Pain after ER was a little worse then usual so they gave me codeine. I don't know if it's that or the anesthesia but I feel really nauseous so I'm going to lay down.

10 comments:

M said...

I am so sorry it is not what you expected. It doesn't make sense. Thankfully 3 made it, and you better believe I will be praying for you and your 3 little ones all tonight.

Amy said...

Thanks. What probably happened was that the other follicles maybe were not mature and didn't release from the side of the follicle. I just have a hard time believing I had 6 follicles with NO eggs. you know?

M said...

Absolutely. It does not make sense to me. I hope you can talk to your doctor tomorrow. I mean, we know that you can produce 8-13 eggs.

I know this is frustrating for you both, but these little 3 still stand a good chance.

Amy said...

Actually we don't know I can produce more then 8 eggs. I had one IUI cycle where I had 13 follicles but there is no way of knowing if they had eggs or not. :( IVF #1 I did have 7 eggs out of 8 follicles but only 6 were good. I'm really really hoping that at least 2 fertilize and end up being great quality and make it to transfer.

M said...

I think the number this time must be due to the protocol used, though, don't you?

Regardless, I believe you will get good news tomorrow!!!! I am betting on that!

Amy said...

I don't think it has anything to do with the protocol. This was the same exact protocol as IVF #1 (accept a higher dosage of gonal f this time) and with IVF #1 I had 8 follicles (7 eggs 6 of which were good quality). I honestly think that most of the eggs just were not mature. I think they probably were growing slower then they normally do. The sizes of the follicles were great at trigger but it doesn't mean the eggs inside were mature. I just find it hard to believe they were indeed "empty". If a follicle isn't mature enough it wont' release from the side of the follicle and if that doesn't happen it can't be retrieved. I was on herbs for 3 months and now wonder if it just messed up my body. It was supposed to help my response not make it worse. :(

Either that or my ovarian reserve is getting low? or it was just a crappy cycle. *sigh*

Jennifer said...

Oh Amy - I am rooting for those 3 eggies!!! Let's go eggies...fertilize and grow!!! I'm so sorry that 6 had no egg...I just don't understand how this could happen! This "science" of infertility is truly a trial and error game...I realized that after my 1st IVF...and I'm sorry you're caught up in it all! I hope they have great news for you tomorrow with your fertilization report! I hope the discomfort from ER subsides over the next few days for you...I know the day after ER can be very uncomfortable too. Good luck with the anxiously awaited new from your clinic tomorrow. I hope it's great news!!!

M said...

Any news yet?

Amy said...

Not yet. Won't hear for another 3 hours. :(

M said...

Oh, okay. I was thinking it was this morning.